Oh how change is a constant here in the mission. Things that you think are constant can change right before your eyes. The person who you thought was stuck in their ways is now back on the path of righteousness. Or, you are feeling great an hour ago, and now you have a 100 degree fever... Yup, that last one was me. Change is everywhere and you are never far from it at any point in time. Surprisingly enough, we just have to learn to deal with whatever comes our way, mostly because we can't do anything about it most of the time, just like succumbing to illness. We just have to deal with whatever comes our way. Now, sadly, we did not get much work done yesterday because I was ill, and well... in bed... but we tried nonetheless to do what we could. For a moment when I thought (thought being the key word here) I was feeling slightly better, we went down to some computers in our apartment complex to do some online proselyting time. When we got back, we tried to contact as many people as we could using our phone, just trying to make the most of what has been given us, because that was our lot to carry this day. I could have just stayed in bed and slept away the day (even though I did do that for most of the day), but I at least tried to do something for others.
So, why did I share something that feels a little like rambling with you this day? Well, only because through all of this I have learned some things that I want to share with you today. The first one is what I already mentioned up above: That we all have trials that we have to work through all the days of our lives. But it is not just that we have to work through our trials, but we also need to rely on our Savior as He helps us through. When I got out of bed to go and try and do some work online, it was probably the hardest thing I did that day. I had absolutely no strength in my body to get up and get going. My companion kept trying to encourage me, but my body wasn't having any of it. It's at times like these that I am very eager just to lie back down in my very comfortable and warm bed, but instead I offered a small prayer to our Father in Heaven for help, and then I went and tried to get ready. It was awfully difficult, but I knew that it was what I needed to do to fulfill my purpose as a missionary that day. By the time I was ready to walk out the door, my body had the strength, be it barely, but enough to get myself downstairs to do this small bit of work for the day. That in and of itself is a miracle to me, in relying on Christ.
Then there is the second lesson I learned, which was humility. That day I was down for the count. I literally felt like I could not even leave my bed for any reason at all. Whenever I did somehow manage to get out of bed, I was rolling along the ground to go where I wanted to go, but my loving companion helped me out so much this day, and I was treated like royalty. He catered to my every need, that being mostly just getting me some water every few hours, or retrieving a blanket, but it was something I pretty much could not do for myself. I like being as self-sufficient as possible, and try not to burden others, but I realized that it is still good to have some help every once in a while. In the eternal scheme of things, we have to completely rely on the Savior so that we all can return to live with our Father in Heaven after this life. While feeling helpless is not a pleasant place to be in, it helped me to continue to refine my course of being all that my Savior wants me to be.
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